Mole On My Sole

I am now sitting in the balcony of our new house here in Bacolod City. I am trying to surf the net with a not-so-cooperating connection. (really frustrating! grr.) SIGH. I'm feeling this LONELINESS again. I miss home. I mean, yes, I am home. But it's like... HOME AWAY FROM HOME. It doesn't mean that I don't like our new house, just that... uhmm.. well, actually, there's just one reason really.. 'cause... I LEFT MY FRIENDS back home. I really miss them. REALLY! It's hard being here away from them. It's so sad that I can't be with them at times like this.. especially, when now (vacation) , we seldom see each other because we're already in College. So, when they meet up from our usual " tambayan ", I can't be there. Sometimes, they set up the date with me around. That is, if I could go back. And when I do go back, it's a one day trip. I go there then catch the last trip back home. TIRING, right? It's just like not before. It...

I know it's too early but just wanna greet everyone... MERRY CHRISTMAS! May everyone will have a happy and bountiful Christmas. God Bless! Take care. :))

Actually, there's nothing to tell. Nothing to write. What's BLOG for anyway? Oh well, sitting in front of the computer starts to get me bored. Before, I enjoyed it so much. There were new things to read, games to play and new friends to meet. But then, it started to get boring. It was just over and over again. The same things, the same doings. IT WAS ALL THE SAME. Even though, there's a lot to see. I just have no interest with them anymore. So, I have to think of something to do. Then, it hit me. Why not have a BLOG? I have an account on different social networks already. But I've never had a Blog. NEVER . You know why? Because I am afraid to write. Afraid of what might other thinks about what I write. I'm not PERFECT (Everyone, ofcourse). But I'm just not like those other people who are very good in writing. I got my English on Topsy-turvy at some times. And I have never really great things to write. But one thing, I really love to do... is SHARE what I fee...

TRUE by Ryan Cabrera I won't talk I won't breathe I won't move till you finally see That you belong with me You might think I don't look But deep inside the corner of my mind I'm attatched to you mmmm I'm weak, it's true Cause I'm afraid to know the answer Do you want me too? Cause my heart keeps falling faster [ chorus] I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing that's true So I will not hide It's time to try anything to be with you All my life I've waited This is true You don't know what you do Everytime you walk into the room I'm afraid to move I'm weak, it's true I'm just scared to know the ending Do you see me too? Do you even know you met me? [Chorus] I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing thats true So I will not hide It's time to try anything to be with you All my life I've waited This is true I know when I go I'll be on my way to you The way...

Today, I feel so LOST . Once again, I feel like I'm from a different planet. Like I don't know the people around me. It's so hard to act like I'm one of them. It's just too hard. I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do. If only things were just like before. But, NOTHING STAYS FOREVER. BIG SIGH. This isn't my day. :(

Noon, mahilig ako ngumiti. Ngumiti ng walang sawa. Pero.. Noon, kahit nakangiti ako. Hindi ko alam ang totoong kahulugan ng salita o gawain na NGITI. Hindi nagtagal, unti-unting naglaho. Hindi maipaliwanag kung bakit ito'y bigla-bigla na lang nawala. Hindi alam. HINDI. NGAYON.. NGITI. di maitago. di maiwasan. anong dalang ligaya? NGITI. ngayon, buong-buong nagagawa. TANONG sa sarili, NGITI? Saan nanggagaling? SAGOT ko, dahil sa IYO. NGITI ko'y IKAW. IKAW LAMANG. :))